Dictionary.com defines sad as affected by unhappiness or grief; sorrowful or mournful . I define sad as a darkness that creeps over all the good memories in your life making them seem like they never happened , causing you to have nothing to stop crying .
For the last couple of days i have been sinking deeper and deeper into a black hole of my problems .. I know it sounds selfish and everything but everyday something reminded me of a problem I am having or recently got over . I hate talking about myself and my problem because I feel like im being selfish complaining and being sad because i know their are people worse off but i just cant help break down and cry ; and today I finally did . I cried till my tears were no more, till my face looked puffy and my eyes were red , till my shirt was soaked , till i could not even finish my homework , I was lucky to have no one around when it happened or I would have been questioned for mental stability ,yh it was that bad . I am not sorry though it was about time for a good really really good cry ! I always feel better after crying cause i feel like a weight is lifted from my mind even if the darkness still clouds most of my great memories I can remember a few such as the trip to Jamaica earlier this year ( that one amazing beautiful glorious awesome Friday with my best friend and others ) . I wish I had more like that more HOME more FRIENDS more SMILING less BULLYING less HURTING less EVERYTHING ......
I always know when it is about time for a good cry . I tend to wear extra bright colors , but enjoy dark things like sitting in the dark ( as you can see below ) and watching scary things . I also don't eat or want to move or want to talk .. I barely wanted to write this post . Anyway I'm glad got a lot of that off my chest maybe today will be a new day a better day a happy day ... (thought about Sister Act 2) .....
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xxRaevenxx
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