Everybody Leaves OneDay

I guess I am cursed or something because I cant make a long lasting friendship at all. Something always happens . Like in prep school I had these friend Danae , Adrianna and Taylor . We were friends from 3 to 6th grade . Not like besties or anything but we were pretty cool . Then after 6th grade you go off to high school and we all went to seperate ones and thats was the end of that , we dnt ever talk  ! Then i got to high school and I had my friend Trisanya (currently my best friend i think) . We had made friends
in the 6th grade and we ended up in the same class for 1st form ( 7th grade) . Now I hated high school with a passion but there was still something that kept me there . Soon I made friends with these awesome girls Roianne and Jamiel .. these girls were awesome , had my back through most things except for a few bad spots .. I didnt think anything cud ever breakup these 3 awesome friendship then I finnaly got my wish to leave Jamaica and come back here but I guess all that time i never tought of the consequences .. when I left all I got was were gonna miss you , a few tears mostly from Roianne and the occasionalyy good riddens but I belived all this bull crap that people were really gonna miss me sad isnt it. I talk to Roianne and Jai maybe once a month .... and our convo arent about anything and never last .. these girls know shit about me I barely told myself :( ... then Trissy we tlk but for like 5 secs ans then itz just dead .. she called me yesterday and we tlked but then that was it .. it hurts cause these are the people that rescued me from myself , the ones that took me out the dark corner. Then I got here cried for weeks didnt think id ever fit in ( still dnt ) but freshmam year I manged to make atleast six friends awesome people ..  by the end of the year 2 moved , 2 basically stopped talking to me , 1 i never saw here anymore , but one lasted i spent most of Summer with her , Shabrieka was my ride or die forever then shit happened Sophmore year we didnt get any classes together not even lunch . Now were almost at the end of Soph Year and I have 5 friends , 1 barely talks to me  and is about to move , 1 i see every other day n we barely tlk  anymore , 1 i only have lunch with so we bearly see each other , 1 i got lunch and a class with but it the end of the semester which means things change nxt year and the last 1 words cannot explain how much of a lifesaver shes been , always there to make me eat when i dnt want to , always telling me not to make mistakes again , always there to tlk she is one awesome friend and now she might move too so yh Ill be alone by nxt semester .. now dnt get me wrong there are many people who i can always have a convo with in class or in the hall but i wnt have anyone to catch me when I fall which only means Im gonna fall again I am gonna crawl right back in that dark corner and whos gonba rescue me this time Im already half way there . Sigh .. Eh...Life